Category Archives: Weight Loss Journey
I have an addiction that I need to get rid of……Drinking Pepsi Max. We go through so much in this household, it gets expensive and I have been thinking about it more especially concerning the effects that it has on our bodies. Last night was the last night that the household was allowed diet soft drink, today is day 1 of it not being consumed, or even better, brought into the house. I expect there to be some withdrawals of course but its something that we have to do.
Last week I started with a new trainer thanks to my sister in law! This week I had a personal session and a group session and wow, did I work hard or did I work hard! I have a suspicion that my own words are coming back to haunt me lol. I loved how I am pushed, how I am realising how far I have come and I like knowing how much more I have got to go.
Weight is now down to 104.3kg making it a total loss of 23.5kg. I like the new choices of clothing I have and I’m finally getting back some confidence. I have people who haven’t seen me for a while stopping me in the shopping centre and today at school. It was a nice feeling. Sometimes you need those moments to help spur you on to remain strong and just to keep on going!
I’ve had a training session organised with some girls for this afternoon and as murphys law would have it, we woke up to pouring rain! I gave the girls two options, JFDI and get out there despite the weather or rechedule. To my excitement they have all said yep lets get out there! Do you remember how when you were young it was so much fun to run around in the rain, slip around and get covered in mud….why does that have to change now? I am looking forward to getting out there, getting dirty and coming home to a cup of low cal hot chocolate or a protein shake (actually i like the protein shake idea better!)
Will update after our return!
This could easily turn into a mammoth post but i’m short for time.
Week 5 weigh in and only a 500g loss on scales, this is evident of how little i’m doing so the only person i can blame is me! I let the excuses come in this week, I have just felt absolutely stuffed! I needed a week after the school holidays to just recoup, do nothing if i feel like it and focus on getting the house back in some order (yeah that worked out real well, each time i get somewhere someone else (KIDS!!!!) ruin in but such is life). Given this though the cm’s are moving from my waist and my hips so I am not going to complain about that. I wish that i could make it move from my hips faster! So so far in the past 4 weeks i have lost 5.6kg. Just 400g shy of my first 4 weekly goal which was 6kg but its a good effort!
People are noticing now that i’m losing weight, I’m getting compliments and pats on the back which is very encouraging. I love seeing the eyes bulge when I say oh yeah i’ve lost 20kg!! It is a feat, a great achievement I know but I guess i’m not feeling how i thought I would. When i look in the mirror i still see the muffin top, the saggy tummy, the saggy tuckshop arms and sometimes I just dont feel any different. I then start a vicious cycle of getting angry at myself (how could i have been so stupid all these years, how could i have damaged my body!) You get the picture. My pants are falling around my bum but when I think of trying a smaller size I have a little voice inside my head saying “your kidding yourself right, a 16 will never fit!”I really need to get rid of that little voice, its not my friend in anyway but its been there for 27 years so its certainly not going to go away over night. What i should be doing is using that voice to fuel the fire!
As my fitness has increased and the weight come off, I’ve found my exercise needs have changed. I’m starting to feel bored at the gym. Sorry running on the treadmill is just boring and the double classes, well they are burning the calories off but its not doing anything else for me. I’ve been going to boxing classes and the training is certainly different. I’ve learnt more about my body and even surprised myself. I’m able to punch with the boys (although punching on witht the trainer last weekend was a tad scary!!) and its a great stress relief. It has me re-thinking all of my exercise goals and plans. I know what my body needs but its a matter of finding someone who can push me like that. Sounds weird but I want to be like the contenstants on the biggest loser, I wan to get to that point where the body feels it can’t take anymore and they are spewing up. Only once have i felt a tad nausiated but never have i ever been pushed to that limit. Its almost that i’m craving that type of workout. Who would have thought! This is coming from the girl or actually i should say woman because I am not a girl anymore, who hated even walking. Yes I hated walking that much that when i was pregnant and had to walk back up the inlaws hill I cried! (yes mil i know if your reading this you will be laughing cause i laugh about it now too).
This past week though I reached a little goal clothes wise. I went into the shops with my sister in law as i needed to try on some new dresses (i have a very poor wardrobe at the moment and feel most comfortable in my gym gear!). so we went around and picked out some dresses for me to try on, not once did i even step into the plus size section. I went and grabbed some 16’s and they all fit! Some didn’t look great, not everything suits everyone but I was just over the moon that they actually fit. To think back in May (4 and a bit months ago) I was wearing a city chic size large (20-22) dresses and size 22 jeans!! today i tried on a pair of shorts in a 16, they were a tad tight but they fit. i didn’t get them, shorts and me just don’t mix but I just wanted to try.
So going to attach a photo for you so you can see the difference (that i’m still not happy with) from the beginning of 12wbt, the end of 12wbt and 3 weeks into my second round. I am proud of my achievements but i need to deal with these other issues too. Losing weight is not just about dropping the kg’s its an emotional and mental journey that sometimes teaches you things you thought you knew about yourself.
Thanks for reading my small essay! Its a bit of a mixed one.
Week 1 weight in of Round 3 was yesterday. Happy to report in the first week a weightloss of 1.6kg. Really happy with that and if i keep it up i’ll be well on my way to hitting my goal of 15kg. (Actually i’m hoping for more but 15kg seems a pretty good start).
It got me thinking though this afternoon how would it feel to hit under 100kg? How would i celebrate? Would i feel differently? What shape would my body take? Its hard to believe that in about a month or so time i’m going to be there. I can’t even remember a time that I was under 100kg. Probably in highschool but what age i’m not sure! Looking forward to getting there though!
Today is kick off!
Not a great start to the day. I have 3 of my children sick. I wish they would keep vomiting constrained to the toilet but they seem to want to share it around with the house (ewwww)! The thing that annoys me is that this all started after 4am. I got up with my hubby to take him to work and trying to be organised, got dressed in gym gear straight away. So 4 hours later and i’m still in my gym gear sitting at the dining table with a clingy 3yr old by my feet. I’m hoping that she will go back to sleep soon (as the other 3 are still out of it) and i’m going to do one of Mish’s dvd’s. This is something that is out of my control and i’m not going to let it defeat me and get in the way. Hubby is at work today so once his home i’ll duck down to the gym. No excuses!
I had a little bit of a hurrah! OMG! moment on the weekend. I have been wanting to get a new pair of tights for my workouts. Ones that didn’t fall down when i ran and gave me some support. I went into Rebel sport and tried on a few styles but I wasn’t getting anywhere until i asked for some help. Anyway i ended up getting a pair of performax tights in a SIZE 16!!!!!!!!!!! I tried an 18 on but it was too big, even tried a 20 on too but yeah it wasn’t going to stay up! I was so proud of myself and how far i’ve come. I can’t wait to be out there buying a 14!
I’m going to do a seperate post on my goals and committments (gotta keep me accountable) and also my measurements. I have to do my before photo also!
So we are in pre season and we are all currently undertaking tasks to help prepare us for the 12 weeks ahead and beyond. One of our tasks is to list down all the excuses we’ve ever used or could possibly use in the future that has held us back or stopped us from eating right/exercising and to find solutions to them.
This task last round was a real eye opener for me. I had to actually sit back and laugh at myself and give me a good old slap. So often you tell yourselves these excuses and you tell other the same excuses that it becomes believable to everyone. So writing this list down not only changed my mindset on exercising and eating right but I also adapted it to my every day life. The result….I’m now living my life and my weight loss is staying off. Each day, each week i become more determined.
I decided tonight that to help me out and keep me accountable, i’m going to list down some of my excuses that i’ve used in the past and could probably use again.
- Too tired
- I’m not motivated
- I’m too fat to do that
- People will laugh at me
- I have too much to do around the house
- I’m pregnant so I dont need to exercise
- My husband wants me to stay home with him
- My husbands work hours!
- Kids are sick today
- Had a rough night
- Knee is feeling a bit sore
- I ate well today so it doesn’t matter if i dont train
- I can’t afford to
I think you get the idea. How many times has these excuses crept into your thoughts or out of your mouths when you have talked about exercising, going to the gym etc?
Even when you feel like you are ontop of your game, things don’t always go to plan and I never always go to plan. The past week has been a little turbulent and situations have arised which has thrown me out. I am ashamed to say that the past two days i’ve emotionally eaten. I’ve realised what I was doing hated myself and then found myself later going back to it again. Its a horrid cycle yet its one that I need to get back ontop of.
Next week my whole routine is out the window as we are going to be carless. Last weekend Dh had an accident, some careless woman doing a u-turn drove out without checking. Whilst the car is driveable its going to need repairs done and we will be without for about a week. This is where this weekend, I am really going to have to sit down and plan my time and workouts wisely!
The good news is that i’m now nearly 18kgs lighter. So close to my 20kg goal, I’m absolutely thrilled! I can’t wait to get there. I think i’m going to reward myself with a Lorna Jane shirt!
So after having two weeks off sick, I went and did the red arrow this morning with two of my friends. Was so nice to be out there in the crisp air, heart pumping, calories burning. I’ll be back again tomorrow morning!
I can’t wait til I’m back into my old routine again. I missed my exercise highs!